Took forever to get the face right… this angle is really hard… lol Don’t judge me. T_T;; I’ll try to continue to update on the work in progress for this piece.
Almost finished with “The Golem and the Jinni”. I was planning on digging into some Murakami books next, but another copy of “The Black Mirror” by Gail Jones found it’s way to me…
I’ve actually purchased a copy of “The Black Mirror” at a used bookstore about 2-3 years ago when I was really into “Surrealism”, but I only got a few pages in before I’ve discarded it towards the back of my bookshelf where it laid forgotten. My stepdad somehow found another free copy of “The Black Mirror” by the roadside and picked it up for me to read. I was kind of surprised to see the same book finding it’s way to me twice… Even the timing was kind of eerie considering I was almost done with my current book and was pondering over what book I should read next… Maybe I’m somehow destined to read “The Black Mirror”. haha I’m actually already a few chapters in, and I’m really loving the way the book is written. The book reads like a Surreal painting itself; the story isn’t merely being told, but rather painted with a delicate palette of words that criss-crosses each other like a jigsaw puzzle, the pieces coming together to create one cohesive landscape.
I didn’t start this entry to write a review on what I’m reading however… The past couple weeks haven’t really been easy, although I’ve allowed myself small luxuries in the hopes that it would alleviate or even distract me from my mental burdens. It’s easy to forget how unsatisfied you are with your life when you fill your head up with fleeting fancies and your stomach full of sweets. It’s recently hit me that it’s been a full year since I’ve graduated and I haven’t made much progress with my artistic career as much as I would have liked…
HOWEVER, I’m not going to completely discredit the progress that I’ve made and the fact that I got to participate in 4 shows thus far (it’s crazy to think that only 3 years ago, exhibiting my work at a gallery seemed like a distant dream…). I think I’m more unsatisfied with my artistic vision and the lack of time and resources to expand it further.
It’s not like I hate my current job as a sales associate (it’s a laid-back job where I get to learn and drink all the teas I want and I get paid pretty well), but since it’s become a full-time job, I feel that it’s been getting in the way of my art….and that’s a BIG problem. Now that my 1 year “break time” is up, I feel that it’s really time to get serious. I’ve been way too easy-going lately and let my head fill up with grey haze.
I must admit that my self esteem as an artist has gone down lately… It’s like, how could I continue to call myself one when I hardly have the time to touch pencil to paper? So I’ve been rather surprised to log onto the interwebs to see that I’m getting continued support from people and (more recently) other talented artists whom I admire. It almost feels as if the fruits of my past labor are falling off their branches to hit me on the head, reminding me of who I am and what my goals are… I truly truly truly feel grateful to the people who believe in me enough to invest their time and hard-earned money to support my work even while I am still just a novice. I won’t take their encouragements for granted and continue to work hard towards my goals.
The stationary shop that is located in the same building I work at was having a 50% clearance sale off everything, so I was able to snag everything in the above picture for $15. I’ve been meaning to get that pentel brush pen for the loooongest time, so I’m happy that I was finally able to get it (and for cheap too)!
The little notebook that I bought is beautifully designed and I can’t wait to start writing in it! I’ve been meaning to get back into writing stories again, and it would be nice to have a pretty notebook to gather all of my thoughts and snippets of words in. I would get ideas or phrases inside my head throughout the day, and it’s always a shame not to have a notebook and pen around whenever the inspiration happens to float by.
Pen & Ink
April 7th, 2014
Going back to doing daily drawings~!
(I’m actually starting to time myself now; this took about 1 and a half hours…? lol I need to get faster)
Haven’t been to my local used book store in a while (Book Off), so I decided to drop by today after work and see what they had in! They get in some very lovely pictures books from time to time so it’s always a good place to find references or inspiration. The Book Off that I go to caters to a Japanese audience… and because my Nihongo reading skills isn’t very up to par, it takes a little extra digging on my end to find what I want. lol
I’ve found a couple books that were on sale for only a $1 (like the beautiful illustration book called “The Moon Park” that you see on the bottom picture) and I did some serious splurging on a couple more books. One of them was a BEAUTIFULLy designed book on Grimm’s Fairytales (ie: top picture) and the other one I bought was filled with beautiful pictures of architecture, art, musical instruments, and writing from the Romanticism era.
I also went ahead and splurged on some bath salts since I’ve ran out my Lush bath bombs… T_T;; I didn’t want to make a trek all the way to Lush, so I’ve settled for a Japanese brand by “Bath Roman”. I had to do some research online to found out that the one I bought was called “Muddy White” and it’s supposedly made with “hot spring minerals and nature remedies”. Anyway, I had my doubts about this brand at first (I can’t help but be a bit suspicious when it comes to cheaper goods, especially when it’s something that comes in contact with my skin… lol), but I ended up really loving it! It’s made my water super thick and milky, and my skin felt so soft and velvety after I got out of the bath. *_* The only problem that I’ve had with it was the smell…Even though the product claims that 90% of it’s ingredients is natural, the perfume that they mix it in with is so strong and synthetic… it’s almost head-ache inducing. x 0 x I think I’ll just make sure to use a little less of it next time so the smell won’t be so overpowering.
Life has been pretty crazy lately, and I’m relieved to FINALLY get to have some time to clean my room, sit down to a cup of tea, and update my blog.
I haven’t had a single day of rest since I got back from my relaxing trip to Canada! It was as if Life was just waiting for me to step out of that plane, back onto American soil so that it could present me with a big fat punch in the face. I was so overwhelmed by everything at first, and it didn’t help that my body’s immediate reaction to the sudden wave of responsibilities was with bi-polar emotions… -_- I’ve been good about keeping all of my frustrations to myself, however, since I’ve realized that whining about my problems to people who can’t even sympathize would only arouse inward sighs and silent judgment…
After a while, however, I feel like my body has become adjusted to my new schedule, and everything has panned out now for the better. I’m happy to say that I recently got a promotion at my part-time job, which means more financial stability for me (yay), but it also means more work! Not only am I juggling my art life with my part-time (which has recently become more demanding), but I’m also helping out at my mom’s shop now… (Plus, I’m secretly on the hunt for a more art-related job to replace my part-time… lol)
I honestly believe that all my working hours effected my latest contribution to the Hive show this month… I don’t know…Maybe I’m just blaming work on my own lack of discipline… There has been a lot of times when I’ve chosen to relax on my bed over sitting at my desk to work on my piece. haha…
I’m not too proud in the craftsmanship of my latest piece, but to say the least, I guess I must credit myself to the fact that I even managed to procure a solid piece and one that I feel like is a bit of an improvement from my past pieces… (I terribly wish I didn’t rush on the face though… I think I could have made it less wonky-looking… T_T;)
I’ve really really strained my physical body while working on this piece and went for about 3 days straight with about 2-4 hours of sleep! By the time my deadline arrived, my body felt like total poop and I vowed myself to never let my body go through this kind of torture again! Whew… It took me about a day and a half for my body to fully recover from the exhaustion, and now I feel more pumped than ever (although my right arm still hurts…) to take on my next project and resume doing daily drawings…!!
On a final note, I’ve been really happy and grateful for all the new followers I’ve been getting! I will continue to do my best and update this blog with more and more drawings. :- )
This piece will be exhibited tomorrow at the Hive Gallery!
I feel really weird about this piece… This is probably my first and last self-portrait that I’ll ever do. lol
Anyway, William Basso will be featured in the show, and I’m super excited to see his work in person. *_*
Awww! thank you so much, lovely ; w ; <3
Haven’t stepped out of my house for the past 2 days… I’ve been drinking lots and lots of tea during this time. lol I still have to fix the face, but I’m almost done…
In case you were wondering… yes, this is a self-portrait…
I was never someone who was keen on doing self-portraits, but the theme for the show that I’m participating in sort of requires it. I could have been more creative with this one, but… I guess I just felt like I should just be as straight-forward with this as possible…?